Peanut butter ice cream with fudge flakes, chocolate nougat and sweet & salty pretzel swirls. Candy Bar Pie is now available in pints. You’re welcome.

Pretty much my favourite meal ❤ I had a mini meltdown after my TV glitched on me… I love my TV 😁 Haha anyway - WE TIED IN MY FOCKEY GAME! YAAAY! Haha - I’m doing really well today food wise which makes me happy! I’m seriously run down and tired though so I think I’ll have a shower and head off to bed early. I’m in a good place and I hope I can keep that!

1. Bloating is going to happen. Your body is severely undernourished and although it needs the food so much to repair, it will find it difficult to digest at first. This will last a few months to a year or even more. But it is temporary, it will not last. Recovery will be worth it, being in misery with an ED is not.

2. Don’t compare yourself to others in recovery. This is YOUR recovery and YOUR life. You do not have to eat clean, you do not have to eat what any one else is eating. Different things work for different people. Similarly, you cannot compare yourself to non disordered eaters. You do not know their regular eating habits, you only see what they eat with you, I assure you if they are completely normal and healthy, they will eat the same and if not more than you.

3. You are the person responsible. At the end of they day, doctors and parents and friends can beg you to get better but you are in charge. Only you have the power to change your outlook and recovery. If your parents don’t remind you to eat, eat. It will be better in the long run, you are strong enough, I promise.

4. Your diagnosis is not you. You are more than a mix of letters. You have so much more potential and life than an eating disorder. It is an unwanted guest not a permanent part of you. Maybe take up some fun (non strenuous) activities, craft, music, writing? Discover your real passions. You were not made to lose weight. You can be free, you can be you, keep fighting.

5. Have a relapse plan. Sometimes you will have bad days and you will not want to fight. Write down some questions, will restricting/b/p/ED behaviour help me? What will I achieve by doing so? Is there something better more recovery orientated I can do? Maybe have a list of things that will distract you, cheer you up, calm you down or rationalise your thoughts. If not, reach out to others, they only want to help you. You are not bothering them.

6. Engage in self care. This is really important, you must care for your body. It loves you so much, it keeps breathing when you want it to die, it lets you know it’s ill when you starve it. Have a bubble bath, some posh moisturiser, face mask, nails, the lot! If this isn’t your thing, how about a nice shopping trip? a movie day, curled on the sofa with some yummy snacks? Whatever is your pleasure, do it! You so deserve it, recovery is hard. Please treat yourself.

7. Eat what you crave. It may seem scary but it has to be done. I bet if you try and get around your cravings, eat fruit, drink water, eat something ‘healthier’, it will not go away. And you will end up eating it anyway. You have deprived yourself for so long and you need to listen to your body and give it exactly what it needs. You can do this. Trust yourself, your body would not crave what it doesn’t need.

8. Let go of the triggers. Photo’s, people, objects, safe foods, thoughts and mindsets. They will only hinder your recovery. Ultimately, your life is your biggest priority. If someone or something is holding this back, distance yourself.

9. Let go of numbers. This is perhaps the most difficult. But, you are NOT a number. You are not a calorie, kg, lb, gram, grade, date, year. You are an extraordinary make up of awesomeness. Calories are not important. You may need to count to make sure you have enough, but know that this is to heal you, not to limit you. Why not ask someone else to count, make sure you have a good high energy plan? Weighing foods is pointless. 30g or 300g of cereal, no difference. 1kg or 10kg heavier, still beautiful. I could talk on and on about the subject of numbers. To summarise, you are literally so much more than 1 or 2 or 3. You are a freaking human being, you were not created to restrict and obsess yourself in to misery.

10. We believe in you. Everyone believes in you. And people around you are going to say stupid things that makes it seem like they are angry or disheartened. But they just care so much and they just want you to be happy. Sometimes it’s difficult for them to understand but just know that they want the best for you. And if not, then I do. I want you to recover, and I know you can.

What I wish I knew at the start of recovery. (via rebekahs-recovery)


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- 4 days ago


I find it interesting how society doesn’t care when the media sexualizes women, when men sexualizes women, when school and the government sexualizes women. But the second a woman is in control and sexualizes herself willingly it’s wrong and disgusting.

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- 4 days ago

1.There will be days when you don’t wake up feeling beautiful. Go back to sleep on these days. Set an alarm. Wake up over and over again until the sun kisses you so hard, you glow.
2. Learn to stop tattooing sad songs across your wrist. Your pulse will start sounding like a final breath, and that’s not the kind of music you want to make, baby.
3. There is an orchestra in your footsteps. There is a piano in your spine. There is poetry in your heartbeat. Your eyelashes cast shadows like stage lighting. You will wear musical notes across your chest that warn the others that this is no small production.
4. When they don’t want to love you, don’t stop singing. You can’t be everyone’s favorite song, no matter how beautiful you are.
5. Your heart isn’t clumsy just because it keeps walking into things. Sometimes, it takes a while to learn how to walk.
6. Even the stars feel dull sometimes. They’re still stars. They’re still a miracle.
7. You are still miracle. You are still miracle.
8. It’s okay if you don’t know what you’re doing. It’s okay. The trees have been alive for hundreds of years, and some days they still shake, too.
9. You are made of untranslated languages. Words no one has been brave enough to try to speak. That doesn’t make them any less holy.
10. The words inside of you can wrap around your heart like a cast. But only if you want to heal.
11. It’s time that you start wanting to heal. It’s the only way you can. It’s the only way you can. Y.Z, Getting better  (via dreamguide)

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- 4 days ago
It’s not strength that makes you give in to your eating disorder. It’s weakness. Strength is standing up to it. Strength is deciding to take a leap of faith and eat even when your thoughts are saying you shouldn’t. Strength is looking at your anorexia and saying “not today. Not ever.” note to self (via 50shadesofrecovery)

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- 4 days ago


healthy people eating process:

  • get food
  • eat food

my eating process

  • go back and forth for an hour about whether or not to eat food
  • finally decide to eat food
  • spend 30 minutes trying to decide what to eat
  • finally decide what food to eat
  • cook food
  • slowly eat food
  • maybe panic about food
  • finish food
  • lay in my bed bloated for the next hour
  • repeat

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- 4 days ago